I was 14 years old when I had my first experience with premonitions or huge intuitive insight. I remember the exact moment it happened. I was playing on a hill by the lakeside with my little sister, Anna. I remember the bump in the hill, the dress and sweater she was wearing and her laughter. She was 20 months old, and after 4 brothers … it was such joy to have a little sister! In a flash there was a knowing … she was going to drown … and the flash was gone. Her smiling face and twinkling eyes at that moment, are embedded in my heart forever. It scared me. I held her close. It was not going to happen – I was going to make sure she would always be safe. We were mindful of living on the lake and would give a shout out to Mom – “Heading down to the lake!” “Heading to the dock!” “Tossing a line out – gonna catch some sunnies!” “Going to jump in and cool off!” It was part of lake life, keeping in touch with heading down to the lake.
Anna did drown. Less than a month later. No matter how attentive I was, how I watched her like a hawk … it didn’t matter, she was gone. The pain felt, was devastating. Even writing this … all the emotions, the smells, the air, the sounds of wailing, come back in an instant. I felt responsible. No matter the compassion and understanding my folks gave me, trying to explain it was an accident, nobody’s fault – no blame. I loved my folks for that, although it took a long time for me to see it their way.
What I came to realize … is there is a bigger plan. Anna’s plan was 20 months. Pure joy and love given to all of us. Then, because of Anna dying, our sister, Kyung, came into our lives. We adopted her from Korea at nearly one year of age, with the last of the siblings, little brother Jake, born a month later. Here I share a bit about the amazing woman she is!
What I believe about premonitions and intuition … For me, they are a way for Spirit/God to give me a ‘heads-up’. I think subconsciously, having this premonition or intuitive insight, helped me to survive. It has also let me know, there are only certain things in life we have control over. I did not have control over Anna dying. I only have control over how I choose to see this event – her life – in my life. I choose to see her as a gift. And her gift to us … Kyung!
I am open to the ‘heads-up’, quiet knowing Spirit/God is willing to share with me. Sometimes, it is fun … I’ll share more next time!
As an Energy Worker, the 6th Chakra is your Intuition, the center of your forehead sometimes referred to as your 3rd Eye, your 6th Sense. Meditation, prayer, listening is a way to hear the “Whispers of Spirit/God”, guiding and supporting you in love …
What have been some premonitions or intuitive knowings you have experienced?
Wishing you gentle ‘Whispers of Spirit’.