I’ve shared with friends … I don’t feel brave. I’ve struggled with ‘What will people think of me?’ Fear is a mighty force in life. I’ve found Faith and Trust overcome that mighty force – and when it all comes down to it, it’s between me and God, anyway – and I’m good with that. When I dream … when I answer the nudges of Spirit/God and let go of fear – amazing things happen. I bet they have for you, too.
3 of My Dreams and How They Came to BE …
After working for years providing massage therapy at a Chiropractor’s office, I began to have that feeling again – I call them ‘quiet knowings’ – my intuition, in my stomach. The feeling was doing MORE with Energy Work – of all kinds. Reiki, Essential Oils, T’ai Chi, Chinese Medicine and Acupuncture, Massage, Readings, Counseling. I wanted to have classes, and gather people together with the realization they are not alone in their seeking. My dream was bringing talented, gifted people together and provide our community with amazing alternative, complimentary options for health and wellness.
So, to have a dream come true – you have to let go of fear. (Gulp – so many reasons why this wouldn’t work – single mom, single income, who would even want to be a part of this crazy idea, in a pretty conservative area). You have to do the work, with dreams … knock on doors, pen to paper, gather information and see if it really is a path Spirit/God is leading you on. I did lots of work with the Small Business Development Center at Central Lakes College. Julie Anderholm had told me, the work would let me know if the numbers added up to any kind of success as a business.
Yikes! Fear … breathe … trust … BREATHE.
A bank supported me and now it was finding a location within the right business district. For weeks, I drove up and down Kingwood Street, feeling like it just had to be on this street – somewhere. (I finally quit driving up and down the street, thinking someone may report a stalking vehicle).
One day, client came in for a massage, and looking up at me, with a twinkle in her eye, she asked me if I knew what house was for sale?! – No – was my answer. She said there was a house next door to her – on Kingwood Street – and it was just listed that day! I went to see it the minute our session was finished.
Me, not good at negotiating – that evening – offered a bit more than the listing price and without anyone else coming with me – went through the house. I felt its energy and I loved it.
Naive? No kidding!! Learn from me, ok?! It never hurts to have a second pair of eyes and a brain for thinking things through …
The next day the Realtor called and said there was another party coming to look at the house – 3 Doctors – to make it a clinic. Plan on a bidding war – he said. I was confused, as I had thought my offer was accepted. I told him I was out. I didn’t want that kind of energy in the mix of my dream. He called me back in a day or so and said the Doctors thought it would be too much work to make it happen. Hmmm. Interesting comparison. Me, single Mom, single income, being me. 3 Doctors – money – resources – too much work! Well, you know this by now … I bought the Kingwood House – ghosts and all – but that’s another story for another time! (A good one, too.)
On a side note – Dr. Starzinski was one of the doctors looking at the house. Soon after, he joined us with his practice. How wonderful it was!
A Dream Come True! Front page news … Here’s a bit of it …
Dream. Work it. Trust Spirit/God to open doors if it is to be … Many lives were touched when crossing the threshold of this amazing house.
Then the financial crash of 2008 happened. I did all I could to keep the doors open. No one had discretionary income. Self-care was put at the bottom of the list – basic needs were at the top. The stress and angst of letting go, impacting my colleagues and our clients, was devastating. The house was sold in a short-sale in 2011, with my Realtor, Liz Timothy.
Something else was happening in the mix of all of this … I had a ‘quiet knowing’ … something else was up … Spirit/God was giving me a ‘heads-up’ …. I just didn’t know what ….
Dream 2 ….
After the selling of the Kingwood house, I needed a place to live. I was very clear in asking Spirit/God/Universe to provide me exactly what I wanted – and if they wanted to embellish it at all, for a greater good – I was ok with that, too!
My Dream … My Exact Wish ….
- A One bedroom apartment, just for me. No up-keep. If the faucets leaked, call the landlord, if anything leaked, call the landlord. I was tired.
- I wanted it to face east-west, for morning sun and evening sunsets.
- I needed laundry close-by, because of all the massage sheets I washed.
- A garage.
- And this much for rent $ _____! Yikes!
I called an old classmate who did rentals and yes, he had a few open in the next month. We set up a time to look … (I hadn’t shared my list yet). Oh my, none of them worked for me.
… Breathe ….
We were out in the parking lot, ready to go, and he asked me what I really wanted … so … I told him! Exactly!
He shook his head at me and grinned. (Well, he ASKED!!)
He said I wasn’t going to believe it … (Try me) …
A one bedroom, east-west, laundry room out the door to the left, with a garage, was going to open at the end of the week. Yes, for $____! (Who’s smiling now!!)
AND he let me paint it the colors I wanted, so my book club gals came over and we had a painting party! (Bonus Blessing: I found an office only a mile down the road.)
I gave a shout-out to friends and Fambly to help me move. When the doorbell rang early moving day, there stood my brother, Patrick and wife, Darlene up from the cities to help … they said to look outside! There, on both sides of the street were friends with trucks, cars, trailers, even an ambulance to haul stuff to my new office and apartment. (We did it all in one trip!!) Some friends had met at apartment with food to feed the gang. I was teary and grateful all.day.long.
That’s not the end of the story.
That ‘quiet knowing’ … something was up … when I had to sell the Kingwood House …
I got my answer.
My folks lived across the yard from my apartment. Mom helped me clean. She made cottage curtains for the living room. I’d go over for coffee and they would mention how late I was up the night before (my bedroom window faced theirs!)
And they both would be gone a year later.
I needed the ease and grace to be there for them as they journeyed their way to heaven – and Spirit/God gifted me with the perfect apartment, in the perfect location to do so.
A dream come true!
Sleepovers and play-dates were fun memories in my apartment!
I’ll save my Dream #3 for the next post, this is getting long. Are you still with me?
#3 Dream … It’s pretty awesome.
My encouragement to you:
Dream Big. Let go of fear. Let go of what people will think of you. Breathe. Trust the journey. The right answers will show up. Do the work. Ask Spirit/God/Universe for what you want … and then get ready for the unfolding … and the blessings.
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