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Dreaming BIG … Trusting Spirit

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Trusting Spirit!

I’ve shared with friends … I don’t feel brave.  I’ve struggled with ‘What will people think of me?’  Fear is a mighty force in life.  I’ve found Faith and Trust overcome that mighty force – and when it all comes down to it, it’s between me and God, anyway – and I’m good with that.  When I dream … when I answer the nudges of Spirit/God and let go of fear – amazing things happen.  I bet they have for you, too.

3 of My Dreams and How They Came to BE …

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After working for years providing massage therapy at a Chiropractor’s office, I began to have that feeling again – I call them ‘quiet knowings’ – my intuition, in my stomach.  The feeling was doing MORE with Energy Work – of all kinds.  Reiki, Essential Oils, T’ai Chi, Chinese Medicine and Acupuncture, Massage, Readings, Counseling. I wanted to have classes, and gather people together with the realization they are not alone in their seeking.  My dream was bringing talented, gifted people together and provide our community with amazing alternative, complimentary options for health and wellness.

So, to have a dream come true – you have to let go of fear.  (Gulp – so many reasons why this wouldn’t work – single mom, single income, who would even want to be a part of this crazy idea, in a pretty conservative area). You have to do the work, with dreams … knock on doors, pen to paper, gather information and see if it really is a path Spirit/God is leading you on.  I did lots of work with the Small Business Development Center at Central Lakes College.  Julie Anderholm had told me, the work would let me know if the numbers added up to any kind of success as a business.

It did.

Yikes!  Fear … breathe … trust … BREATHE.

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A bank supported me and now it was finding a location within the right business district.  For weeks, I drove up and down Kingwood Street, feeling like it just had to be on this street – somewhere.  (I finally quit driving up and down the street, thinking someone may report a stalking vehicle).

One day, client came in for a massage, and looking up at me, with a twinkle in her eye,  she asked me if I knew what house was for sale?! – No – was my answer.  She said there was a house next door to her – on Kingwood Street – and it was just listed that day!  I went to see it the minute our session was finished.

Me, not good at negotiating – that evening – offered a bit more than the listing price and without anyone else coming with me – went through the house.  I felt its energy and I loved it.

Naive?  No kidding!!  Learn from me, ok?!  It never hurts to have a second pair of eyes and a brain for thinking things through …

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The next day the Realtor called and said there was another party coming to look at the house – 3 Doctors – to make it a clinic.  Plan on a bidding war – he said.  I was confused, as I had thought my offer was accepted.  I told him I was out.  I didn’t want that kind of energy in the mix of my dream.  He called me back in a day or so and said the Doctors thought it would be too much work to make it happen.  Hmmm.  Interesting comparison. Me, single Mom, single income, being me.  3 Doctors – money – resources – too much work!  Well, you know this by now … I bought the Kingwood House – ghosts and all – but that’s another story for another time!  (A good one, too.)

On a side note – Dr. Starzinski was one of the doctors looking at the house.  Soon after, he joined us with his practice.  How wonderful it was!

A Dream Come True!  Front page news … Here’s a bit of it …

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Dream.  Work it.  Trust Spirit/God to open doors if it is to be …  Many lives were touched  when crossing the threshold of this amazing house.

Then the financial crash of 2008 happened.  I did all I could to keep the doors open.  No one had discretionary income.  Self-care was put at the bottom of the list – basic needs were at the top.  The stress and angst of letting go, impacting my colleagues and our clients, was devastating. The house was sold in a short-sale in 2011, with my Realtor, Liz Timothy. 

Something else was happening in the mix of all of this … I had a ‘quiet knowing’ … something else was up … Spirit/God was giving me a ‘heads-up’ …. I just didn’t know what ….

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Dream 2 ….

After the selling of the Kingwood house, I needed a place to live.  I was very clear in asking Spirit/God/Universe to provide me exactly what I wanted – and if they wanted to embellish it at all, for a greater good – I was ok with that, too!

My Dream … My Exact Wish ….

  1. A One bedroom apartment, just for me.  No up-keep.  If the faucets leaked, call the landlord, if anything leaked, call the landlord.  I was tired.
  2. I wanted it to face east-west, for morning sun and evening sunsets.
  3. I needed laundry close-by, because of all the massage sheets I washed.
  4. A garage.
  5.  And this much for rent $ _____!  Yikes!

I called an old classmate who did rentals and yes, he had a few open in the next month.  We set up a time to look … (I hadn’t shared my list yet).  Oh my, none of them worked for me.

… Breathe ….

We were out in the parking lot, ready to go, and he asked me what I really wanted … so … I told him!  Exactly!

He shook his head at me and grinned.  (Well, he ASKED!!)

He said I wasn’t going to believe it … (Try me) …

A one bedroom, east-west, laundry room out the door to the left, with a garage, was going to open at the end of the week.  Yes, for $____! (Who’s smiling now!!)

AND he let me paint it the colors I wanted, so my book club gals came over and we had a painting party!  (Bonus Blessing:  I found an office only a mile down the road.)

I gave a shout-out to friends and Fambly to help me move.  When the doorbell rang early moving day, there stood my brother, Patrick and wife, Darlene up from the cities to help … they said to look outside!  There, on both sides of the street were friends with trucks, cars, trailers, even an ambulance to haul stuff to my new office and apartment. (We did it all in one trip!!)  Some friends had met at apartment with food to feed the gang.  I was teary and grateful all.day.long.

That’s not the end of the story.

That ‘quiet knowing’ … something was up … when I had to sell the Kingwood House …

I got my answer. 

My folks lived across the yard from my apartment.  Mom helped me clean.  She made cottage curtains for the living room.  I’d go over for coffee and they would mention how late I was up the night before (my bedroom window faced theirs!)

And they both would be gone a year later.

I needed the ease and grace to be there for them as they journeyed their way to heaven – and Spirit/God gifted me with the perfect apartment, in the perfect location to do so.

A dream come true!

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Sleepovers and play-dates were fun memories in my apartment!

I’ll save my Dream #3 for the next post, this is getting long.  Are you still with me?

#3 Dream … It’s pretty awesome.

My encouragement to you:

Dream Big.  Let go of fear.  Let go of what people will think of you. Breathe. Trust the journey.  The right answers will show up.  Do the work.  Ask Spirit/God/Universe for what you want … and then get ready for the unfolding …  and the blessings.

Thank you for sharing this walk with me.  If you have enjoyed this post, please like and share it with others!

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Here’s the Thing … Collage Wisdom #3

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It’s so easy to worry.  Look back with regrets.  Woulda, coulda, shoulda.  The best thing about looking back, is the wisdom I’ve gained to move forward.  It’s true – every situation has had Divine Timing.  Mind you, I did not/do not care BEING in certain life events, but when they were most difficult, Earth Angels came in at just the right moments.  They helped me walk through tough stuff with divorce, depression and single parenting.  I’ve learned much, going through the muck.  I’m stronger than I ever thought I’d be.  I’m braver.  The Universe does know exactly what it is doing and an incredible teacher.  I have to take ownership in playing my role in it.  (Not scoring 5 Stars is a reality check!  Yes, I’ll admit to less than stellar performances.)  Breathing helps, every single time!  My asking for help, being willing to change my way of thinking, being adventurous enough to try new things … like dating, for example, were keys to opening doors to new life … and believe happiness would greet me.

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The Universe is still playing with me on the dating thing … none-the-less, my life is filled with happiness, because there are lots of doors in life to open, and I’m twisting a lot of knobs!!  Not all of them open.  I respect that now.  I don’t try to bust or jiggle them open anymore.  I’ve noticed …  light, from a door cracked open in the dark – is amazingly bright.  Look at the stars and the moon on a partly cloudy night – see how the light ebbs and flows with banks of clouds, or wisps … as the earth faithfully turns.  It’s taking time to notice a door is actually open … and being willing to walk through it and … play!

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Blessings and Love,

Namaste

Debbie

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Here’s the Thing … Collage Wisdom #2

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Welcome to this Mini-Series on the

Unfolding Collage Wisdom of Life & Changes 

You don’t always need a plan … That’s easier said than done!  How about you?  Maybe it was the way I was raised, because, there was always a plan.  Life wasn’t in order if there wasn’t a plan.  Then, there was a back-up plan for just in case, right?  Wrapping my brain around not always having a plan has been a decades-long exercise in … breathing and allowing.  If it was exercise in the physical sense, I’d be buffed and toned beyond belief !  ‘Don’t/Always’, are key here … because sometimes plans are necessary = Life. Reality.  I’m encouraging the realization in not having a plan, is being open to possibilities that perhaps haven’t been thought of or imagined yet.

Sometimes you just need to breathe … I’ve noticed, breathing is a theme in my collage.  It’s been a word I’ve used over and over with clients.  Because, it’s so important.  Many would get gold stars for shallow breathing … it’s the deep breaths that make a difference.  That oxygen into our cells, is a bit of a miracle in itself.   I practice mindful breathing, it’s amazing how my body softens and worries melt when I consciously pay attention to my breath.  The long-term effects, for me … mellower in my response to negative events going on in life.  I’m focused on the present, this moment. Now.  So grateful.

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A recent gift from a friend … Thanks, Karen!

Let go and see what happens …  Wheee ….  Yikes … BREATHE … This is where I acknowledge how grateful I am for the gift of faith.  Letting go of the plans.  Trusting and believing Spirit/God and I are ok.  There is a time, a connection, a place greater than I can even imagine, all coming into place.   Surrendering and accepting what is right now, is a relief and also a sense of excitement.  Allowing life to surprise me in most amazing ways.  And when I let go with ease and grace and nothing is happening … in whatever I deem is a reasonable time … then I’m ok with making a move to do something.  It’s usually in-line with the whisper/nudge/tap I talked about in Collage Wisdom #1.

You don’t always need a plan.  Sometimes you just need to breathe.  Let go and see what happens.

More to come!

Blessings and Love,

Namaste

Debbie

 

Re-entry to Life after Nepal … #10

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A brief update!

After cancelled flights and an ambulance ride from the airplane to a Seattle hospital for Amy (she’s hopefully home tomorrow feeling better than ever), I’m home.  It’s taking me more time to adjust than I expected.  Partly due to lack of sleep, partly antibiotics for intestinal bugs, and my body catching up with time, along with concern for Amy.  That’s not including the processing and ‘downloading’ my brain is doing following this amazing experience.

Yesterday, to get grounded, I layered myself up with tee-shirt/long sleeved flannel shirt along with a red hoodie – and headed to a lake in my neighborhood.  My Spirit was calling for nature.  I remember the Chitwan jungle and how restored I was in being surrounded by trees, plants and animals.  Mother Nature is healing.  Yesterday – Brrr! (Chilly-ness and beauty surrounded me).  I love autumn, and was thinking I would miss all the colors – I didn’t!

Gotta love Minnesota and the ever-changing seasons!

I’m still processing – and giving myself time to BE in this space of brain-fog, healing and sleep recovery.  There will be a post or two more about my thoughts on Nepal.  This is mostly letting you know Amy’s soon to be home, I’m home … and sharing this adventure with you, has been a gift.  You have no idea how your support, encouragement and love has touched my life.  Because of my sister, Kyung, and her providing me this journey, all of us have been connected with the sharing of this story.

My cup runneth over with gratitude and so much Love …

Namaste

 

Giving Back to Nepal #9

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~Portal Bikes ~

We have a few hours left in Kathmandu … before we head home to Minnesota, USA.  I really want to share about Portal Bikes before leaving.

As I had mentioned in one of my earlier posts, it’s hard for me … heart-wrenching …  to say “No”, to people who ask me for money, or send their children to me, pleading for money.  Portal Bikes, is my gateway to donating.  I know this awesome non-profit has the integrity and heart, to touch lives, in a big way throughout Nepal.

William’s absolute enthusiasm led us to visiting the Nepal Store where Amy and I were able to visit with Kevin Persson, the Director of Logistics, and have a tour.  We were able to see how the long and mid tail bikes are put together and hear stories about the impact these bikes are making for Nepali’s – from employment, to growing individual businesses.  They also worked to rebuild villages after the earthquake in 2015.

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Portal Bike Employees – Photo by Amy McLain

Throughout our 3 week stay in Nepal, we saw bicycles used to haul all kinds of things – ladders, garbage, vegetables, and fruits, appliances, groceries, children/families, fish, furniture – and they were often older bikes.  Portal Bikes are making life easier and safer, and for many Nepali’s, their work delivering product is done with speed – thus having the ability to do more and increase their income. Being able to spend time with Kevin, solidified my desire to make a difference for someone in Nepal.

There are different ways to donate through Portal Bikes:

  • One time donation
  • Donate $300 for a Portal Cargo Bike
  • Donate Monthly

Portal is a registered 501c3 organization.  Donations are tax deductible, and they directly impact the lives of people trying to escape poverty.  We work hard to keep our expenses low and our impact high.    

 

I’m going for the $300 for the Portal Cargo Bike.  Here’s where my money – your money, too – will go regarding the Bike:

We will use your generous donation to manufacture and deliver a bicycle to a person in need. Since we focus on serving the poor, oftentimes we “finance” the bikes, allowing the customer pays an amount upfront and then make weekly payments. Once the bicycle you donated is paid for, we use those same funds to manufacture and deliver another bicycle. The cycle repeats itself indefinitely, meaning that your money will live for a long time, making a difference again and again.

How awesome is that?!

Making a tiny difference in a great big world … one drop that ripples …

Perhaps you’ll join me?

Make sure you mention “William sent me!”  Without his passionate heart, we never would have known about Portal Bikes.

And so, we’re off for home.  Leaving a country that has made a lasting imprint in my heart.

Sending love to all …

Namaste

 

 

Our Friday … #8

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Narayanhiti Palace Museum

Musings about Friday on Saturday Morning.  Our days in Nepal are winding down.  Yesterday, Amy and I had breakfast at Top of the World Coffee, and I commented on how we have established a rhythm to our days.  It’s so enjoyable.  As I sit in the early morning, putting this blog together, William is already up and brought me a cup of coffee – how spoiled am I?!  Kyung and Amy are still nestled in, gathering energy for a new day.  Kyung is leaving today for a weekend work gig, down by Chitwan, so we have a bit of time this morning to share some sightseeing, creating a few more precious memories.  Last night was our last evening together in Nepal.  Kyung, William, Amy and I celebrated by having supper at Vesper Cafe & Restaurant.  My wine friends in Minnesota would love this place.  Italian food and wine – beautiful presentation and scrumptious.  We were able to go into the wine show room …

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Earlier in the day, we decided to take a cab – at a ‘chok’ (intersection), across from our coffee shop, and head for Narayanhity Royal Palace, home to Nepal’s kings for over a century.  It was converted into a public museum, in 2008, signifying the country’s transition from a monarchy to a republic.

The holiday is over!  Oh my goodness, the traffic was in full swing!  Our masks were back on – Kathmandu is one of the highest ranking cities (5th) with air pollution.  Arriving at the palace, the line for admission to the palace was long, but we got through quickly.  We were required to leave everything but our billfolds and water in a locked, locker.  Everyone had to go through a body search and walk through a scan before actually entering the grounds.  No photos allowed.  Armed guards were at various posts throughout the property.

It’s a beautiful palace, and the history and various rooms were displayed with descriptions also in English.  Beyond the palace is the house where the Nepalese Royal Massacre occurred on June 1, 2001 – the story goes – after a dinner party held at the palace, Prince Dipendra shot his parents, brother, sister and several other members of his family before turning the gun on himself. In total 10 people died and five were wounded – he was unhappy with his father not allowing him to marry the woman he loved, because she wasn’t in the ‘social class’ he was.  Horribly sad.  It was good to be out on the grounds after that … wandering (under watchful eyes) various paths, viewing ponds and sculptures.

We decided on a late lunch before heading back.  On a top floor outdoor restaurant, I was able to take a picture of the palace – 1st photo of blog.  I’m also including the roof-top of another business.  Solar power is used everywhere here.  Much more-so than the USA.  Even the street lights (only in parts of the city), use solar.  So impressed.  Readily available resource, hm?  Put to very good use ….

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Solar Power

We caught a cab back ‘home’ – (I’m getting pretty good at handling pricing and crossing streets with crazy traffic ; ))  It was a great adventure.  Also time to take a break – we’re getting better at pacing ourselves, too, realizing going at top speed, leaves one too exhausted to do more.  We went for a trek later in the afternoon, stretching ourselves with neighborhood boundaries.  I have always felt safe here.  It’s a nice place to BE.

Sending Love and Light …

Namaste

 

Our 5 Night/6 Day Tour #7

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Our tour consists of 3 stops in Nepal: Pokhara, Chitwan and Lumbini.  There were 2 hard parts of our drive.  1st one – Due to the holiday, was getting out of Kathmandu to Pokhara. The roads were filled with cars, buses, trucks, and scooters, packed to the brim, including animals.  We visited with a man at supper the night before who was leaving to be with his family.  He was going on an 18 hour bus ride, most likely standing most the way.  Kyung and William’s house keeper’s trip, would be 2 days driving and 1 day walking to be with her husband’s family.  The roads are not all paved smooth like America – it’s a JOURNEY of love – of being together with family.  We made it to Pokhara – kuddo’s to our driver, Kumar.  I’m going to be giving him lots of kuddo’s with this blog!  Amy went paragliding, it was a thrill for her – and a thrill for me to keep my feet on. the. ground.  We visited the Seti River gorge, temples and a cave.  We also enjoyed an evening boat ride on Phewa Tal (Fewa Lake), and stopped at an island with a temple.  We could hear the insects humming … Amy heard them from the sky when she was paragliding. The area we stayed was very low-key compared to Kathmandu and less dusty.  The shops were along the lake and it reminded me of a huge Nisswa, Minnesota!

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Our third day, Thursday, we headed out early morning for Chitwan National Park.  The 2nd hard part … It was a 7 hour drive – 28 miles of it was not paved, with many holes to dodge, dusty, and hot.  It reminded me of my grandson showing me an intense video game of dodging all kinds of objects and surviving!  The road is 2 lane with huge buses beeping, cars and motorcycles, flashing lights and horns – coming towards you, or passing you before the next on-coming vehicle misses you.  Women exquisitely dressed, with scarves flying in the wind or covering their faces to keep out the dust, children nestled tightly between parents on scooters/motorcycles, with packages tied to the sides.  The drive was an adventure of its own – with the mountains keeping you company – and Kumar expertly maneuvering every mile.  Chitwan is worth every minute of the drive – I promise!

We had a guided walk in a typical Tharu village, a jungle walk, seeing different species of birds, a canoe ride on the Budhi Rapti River and saw crocodiles, who were not interested in us, but watchful.  An evening walk delighted us with a rhino … and the next day an elephant back safari.  Our mahout was determined to discover animals for us and his elephant walked with ease through the jungle.  Lastly, a fun bonus … we enjoyed being with an elephant – and I think he enjoyed having fun with us – cooling us down with many, many sprays, before letting us down in the river.  What fun we had!  Santa was our guide and a brilliant man with a great sense of humor.  He spoke 6 different languages.

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I think we’re all having a great time – look at that smile on the elephant ; )                                He loved being in the river.

Our last leg of the journey was Lumbini, the birthplace of Lord Buddha.  We made it in 4 hours and the terrain changed greatly.  We were in the southern plains.  The temperature felt even hotter than in Chitwan. “Lumbini is one of the holiest places of one of the world’s great religions, and its remains contain important evidence about the nature of Buddhist pilgrimage centres from as early as the 3rd century BC.”

We first toured the international monastic zones and saw temples from different countries – China, Japan, Vietnam, Thailand.  Then we went to the Maya Devi Temple.  Pictures weren’t allowed.  I wish we could have spent more time here.  It was spiritually moving to me, and I’m so grateful to have experienced spending time in this holy city.

As we were leaving for the day … I looked up to the sky …

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A beautiful closing to our journey. 

We decided rather than drive the 8 hours back to Kathmandu, we’d fly – a 30 minute flight.  We were exhausted.  The bonus was being able to see the snow covered mountains – spectacular!  Kumar said “Ok” to a hug, and sent us off. What a great guy!  We had a driver waiting for us at the Kathmandu Airport – and delivered us to Kyung and William’s.  All was done with so much ease.  Shikhar, with Himalaya Expeditions, Inc, did an excellent job planning this trip for us.  He followed up on us periodically – details were taken care of and I highly recommend him for travel planning!

Words are difficult to express emotions, as they are felt with the heart.  This has been an emotional journey on so many levels.  I am grateful for the gift of life and the ability to be able to live in a time where travel can be done with such ease.  Most people on this planet are filled with kindness – it’s a wonder-filled world.

Our days continue in Kathmandu.

For now … I wish you love and peace.

Namaste