Tag Archive | Anger

Suffering in Silence …

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Sometimes, we are way too good at suffering in silence.
 
We don’t want people to know our story.
 
Maybe we’re not feeling strong enough to change our story …
Maybe we don’t know how …
Maybe we think we don’t ‘measure up’ …
Maybe we are afraid of being judged …
Maybe our dream turned into a nightmare …
Maybe we are afraid …
Maybe our voice is only a whisper …
Maybe it will turn into loud, anguished sobs …
Maybe we will be abandoned …
Maybe we will be alone …
Maybe we have lost religion … faith … hope …
Maybe we think we’re unlovable …
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In breaking the silence – our suffering can be a light of strength.
 
Sharing our story …
Opens doors to heal hearts … (our hearts) …
Creates pathways to change …
Breathes courage into the very depths of our souls …
Brings in people who understand … who will walk with us …
Who will lend their shoulder for our sobs …
Who will love us just as we are …
Vulnerable …
Authentic …
Weepy and snotty …
Angry and hurt …
 
And we feel a flicker of love …
And we let it in … just a bit …
It flames the tiniest speck of hope … entwined with a fleck of faith.
 
We soften, letting down our guard as we break our silence … we are incredibly brave. Perhaps standing alone … perhaps with someone good to lean on … knowing we can take a breath … knowing we have broken free.
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My Encouragement to you: 
Share your story.  Bring in counselling if you need it.  When I did, it validated my truth.  It made me work at seeing – how feeling my emotions were a good thing – even though they were awful! 
A great Anne Lamott quote:“I thought such awful thoughts that I cannot even say them out-loud, because they would make Jesus want to drink gin straight out of the cat dish.” 
Yep – that was me!   
                     
Be brave and speak. 
You don’t know the light you will bring into someone else’s life …
let me assure you, you will.
Blessings and Love,
Namaste
Debbie